Monday, February 11, 2019

Steps Established

"The heart of man plans his way,but the Lord establishes his steps."

The reality of Proverbs 16:9 hits me again and again. Throughout my undergraduate studies, I continued to face new situations that required a renewed sense of trust in the sovereign God I serve. But trust is a tricky thing. By that I's really, really hard. My pride and desire to have control always get in the way and prevent me from simply resting in the fact that God establishes my steps.

In three months, I will be heading south to begin studies at Southern Baptist Theological Seminary in Louisville, KY. For the first time in my life, I am moving away from home. I commuted during all four and a half years of college, and I saw my childhood friends just about every week. I've never felt a sustained sense of...lostness. (Unless you count the mornings when I wake up forgetting what day we're in.) I've known nothing but home. I've been comfortable.

Therein lies the problem.

Don't misunderstand me. I am not moving primarily to "get away" and force myself into the unknown. I do sense a call to serve in church ministry of some kind so I believe seminary is the next best step for me. Yet, I am also aware that comfort can be an idol--and often is. When I make decisions (or don't make them) based strictly on whether or not I will remain comfortable, I have raised that feeling on a pedestal it is not worthy of having.

Leaving will be uncomfortable. I am counting on it. I'm not dreading it, but that's probably because it's still three months away. (Ask me, mid-April.) Change has always been uncomfortable for me. But I don't think it would be out of line to say that God has worked a significant portion of my growth through and in the change. For that reason, I eagerly await what lies ahead.

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Soli Deo Gloria

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